Current mood:

creative

Profile.
So my last profile didn't last as long as i thought it would.
I got bored as soon as i logged into LJ again.
Whoopsie. I wish i come make up my mind sometime.

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Onto recent events, i really really hate not having the internet at my new place in York. I seriously feel lost & like i don't have a social life. Not to mention last night i had the greatest urge to write things down in my LJ and just write in here like i promised i would.

I want to write a story, but i'm rubbish at writing. Even though i know this i still wish i had the slightest bit more confidence so that i could just type a whole lot of rubbish and hope people will enjoy it.
I had the greatest idea which was based around my life with a really big "what if" added to it.

I like lists so i'll list what i was intending on writing about & who knows... if i get really bored, it may end up turning into a best selling novel & i'll turn into a multi millionarie at the age of 20 (i wish..!)

• Novel to be called "Love Borders;;" or "Bordering Love;;". Or something maybe a bit more dramatic or with a better title?
• About me & Harpal but due to OBVIOUS reasons names will be changed ;P
• I'm undecided about the way to write it; as in who's point of view to be written in. I wanted to do a sorta of "Malorie Blackman-esque" style by writing the characters viewpoint in turn but thought it would look obvious that i've taken the idea off her. Maybe view points changed halfway? Still pondering anyway.
• Idea is actually based around something i asked Harpal the other day & it just was so scary how the whole idea and exageration of the situation would actually ruin everything. Then i thought why not write a story about it?
• Vague Synopsis (names inserted to make it easier, not actually real characters names) - Layla & Adam met on the internet and have been best friends since the age of 15. (Current age 20). Reasons behind the friendship grew because they had each other as an outlet to their ever occupied and complicated lives based around religion and culture. Phone calls and never ending text messages meant that through the years the pairs relationship grew stronger. Joking about having each other as a "back-up marriage"  that neither would end up alone. Until they meet they realise that actually joking aside they do have feelings for each other and realise that they can't live without one another. Having an open relationship because of the distance they plan their lives and future around each other never even coming to thinking about "what if?" Perfect romance and Layla gets her happy ending.. or thinks she does until her passion for horse riding takes an unexpected turn for the worse when she starts show-jumping on a regular basis. Having a serious accident in the middle of a jump she ends up being paralysed from the waist down and having arms paralysed. Even though Layla & Adam were planning the rest of their lives together Layla has now created a situation in which Adam will have to choose whether or not he wants to sacrifice his life and dreams to stay with Layla.   
• Now what i want to sure is that no matter how much you love someone & think that they are "the one". A situation like this changes EVERYTHING. Not only are they not in a serious relationship together but they're both still young & Adam has the rest of his life in front of him without having to be weighed down by the complexities of Layla.
• The reason why i so want to write this story is because i know love isn't everything. You can only love a person so much before you realise that this kind of relationship will most definitely be unhealthy for you. Especially because Adam will always hold Layla to blame for his loss, even if he never admits it to her. No kids, the strain of money as only Adam will be working, not even a proper wedding as Layla can't ealk down the aisle & Layla being totally & utterly dependant on Adam so it becomes a need rather than a want.
• Adam doesn't sacrifice his future for Layla. & it ruins her life and makes Adam feel guilty for the rest of his.. so guilty that even their friendship is merely non-existant.

Note to anyone that reads this - this is just an idea of a story. If anyone knows of a story similar to this please inform me. Also, i really would appretiate it if people could let me know whether this is a good idea or not.
If not, i'll just leave it as it is and put it down to me having random surges of thought.
Anything more? & i'll see about actually writing it as a novel ;P.

Thank you!!!
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